Saturday, September 24, 2016

A CHALLENGE TO MY NATURAL SELF

Every human derives a lot of strength from his natural character, the natural being that is ingrained within him. Even as a parent I consciously evolved in the way I gave feedback to my daughter, taking all care that the feedback, never altered their natural base. Whatever corrections had to be done, had to be done with the natural strengths remaining intact. My strength lies very much in my silent nature. Some people see my external body language and conclude that I am reserved. Actually I would spontaneously explode and talk to the extent of inundating the other person, if the topic was around what I was interested, so much so that the other person would get overwhelmed. But on a majority of times, I would prefer being alone and being alone for hours never makes me gloomy but on the contrary energizes me for action.


When I was in school, I was less assertive, more diffident and more quiet. Once, one of my uncles, whom I often spotted talking in a social circle more than what was necessary, often kept prodding me to talk more while in a social gathering where close family and friends showed up. The more he prodded, the more I became conscious about it and at one point, I started talking although I really felt that the talking I was doing was beyond a "Hi" and that it was more intrusive and unnecessary. At that point, I never knew, that I myself was tarnishing my natural profile. Yes, it was good if I did talk more, but then, it would have been more appropriate, if it could have been allowed to happen as a slow transformation with sensible talk. Instead, I was actually responding, to someone's constant prodding.

On one such attempt, I met one of my Dad's very old friends at a wedding reception and started a conversation with him. "Hello Harry Uncle, how are you?" I asked. "Oh Roy, I am fine. How is Cherian? Hasn't he come?", he asked. "No Uncle. Dad is busy with some work. So he asked me to be here", I replied. "So how is your son Uncle? Where is he now?" I asked, beautifully placing my next question as though with the elan of a very seasoned socialite. "He is fine. He is in the Gulf", he replied almost immediately. "So where is he working in the Gulf Uncle?", I asked again with all inquisitiveness. "He is in the Gulf", replied Uncle with some more sternness in his tone. I paused for a while and silence filled the space between us. Around us the buzz of the crowd and music was in full blow. Little children were running all around with ice cream cones in their hands. The decorative lights that festooned the arena, slowly started coming into prominence as twilight slowly gave in to the night. And then I placed the same question again, "Uncle, which company does he work for in the Gulf?". He gave me a death stare and walked away. I realized then, on the impact of the change, that I was attempting to implement within me.  The ramifications were pretty clear.

With the passage of time however, I really developed the art of smooth and polished talking at social functions. I believe, we can take feedback and apply them with our own natural style and at our own pace and not as a response to someone's pressure messages. After all, an improvement can only be done, from a base of natural strength.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Humans are never the same. In a 70 yr lifespan, humans have always evolved and adapted to the surroundings and circumstances. So the words "Being Myself" is just bonkers atleast for me. Remember the only thing which doest change in tgis world is "CHANGE".

Mr.Blue

Binu Ittyerah said...

Well said Roy ! A good personal experience quoted with your usual humourous self. As discussed earlier, being the natural self brings with it it's bags of responsibility to sustain and sail through the experience successfully. Thanks for the article, because I share the same thoughts.

ajwilson said...

Hello Roy,
Am copy pasting your thoughts expressed at the start of your article,

*Actually I would spontaneously explode and talk to the extent of inundating the other person, if the topic was around what I was interested, so much so that the other person would get overwhelmed. But on a majority of times, I would prefer being alone and being alone for hours never makes me gloomy but on the contrary energizes me for action.*

I did that because you echoed my very own thoughts, which are identical to what you have expressed....yes, you personally know that I am very talkative around a subject that interests me very much, during the period that we were together in L&T. God bless.

Roy Cherian Cherukarayil said...

@Blue: You are right. What always is there is CHANGE and we shud embrace it. But each one of us have our own style of embracing it. That makes us really powerful
@Binuchetta: Yes, when we go with our natural self, it also brings in a lot of ownership as we are taking control of things and deciding when and how to implement the changes.
@Wily Sir: Really happy to hear. Yes, I have a very clear picture of your personality. You are very intense in the areas where your interests lie.

roy thomas said...

Very well written. I share the same thoughts.

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